9.01.2005

parents and counselors tell you to focus on the good things in life. not to let the bad things get you down. as if willful ignorance, or, worse, willful callousness is a solution to anything but your own personal misery.

of course, once you have tried it, you realize how strong the temptation is to relieve your own personal misery at any cost.

there are days when all i feel is grateful for having this medicine, for having no tv, for having no news. there are days when i forget that there are other people and places in the world.