4.28.2005

great expectations suck

if people would just let go of their expectations, i think we would all be a lot happier. as it is, we just build ourselves up for disappointment. waiting for things to come that dont, wanting people to be what they arent, all that bullshit just detracts from the reality of things. it detracts from what good there actually is because we focus on the good there might have been. well, i dont suppose its that easy to give up on expectations, because ive tried but im disappointed even in that. but i can look back with hindsight and see what good there actually was in things. and maybe i can appreciate it even if its after the fact. this is all so easy to type out, so difficult to do most days. but at least its an idea and at least i feel a little better about myself for writing it down.